Him and I

There He was.  Standing in all His glory.  Yet, despite the angels singing praises, and the Father sitting next to Him, only one thing caught His eye.  It was me.

            Me in all my weakness.  Me in my shame.  Feelings of guilt, shame, and dirtiness washed over me.  Why would the king of the universe care to see me?  I figured it had to be to scold me.  To tell me that I needed to get my life together.  It wasn’t like I had been bringing Him glory in my life.  In fact, it was the exact opposite.

            “My daughter!  It’s been so long! How are you?” He looked anything but mad, just happy to see me.

            “I’m so sorry Jesus. I have failed you.  I walked away and I got so mad at you.  Please forgive me, I can’t do this.”

            I broke down crying at His feet.  How could I possibly be redeemed?  How could He take away the shame, and dirtiness of my past?

            “You have been redeemed.  I have missed you.  Don’t you realize that you are always on my mind?  That I long to spend eternity with you.”

            Just like that I felt Him take all my sin, all the guilt I have carried around and throw it away from me.  He took off my rags, and He placed His robe upon me.  He lifted me up and showed me my beauty through Him. 

            “I don’t want to lose you.” I whispered.

            “You won’t.  I would never leave you nor forsake you.  You’re My daughter, and I will watch over you day and night.” 

            “But I have to go back.  How will I know you are there?  How can I be certain that you won’t walk away when things get hard, or that I won’t walk away?  I have done it before.”

            “You don’t understand My power.  All of heaven and earth are at my feet.  Even the demons know that I am Lord of heaven and earth, and they cannot get by Me if I do not allow it.  I will never let anything separate us.  You walked away before you believed in Me, yet now you see.  You won’t leave Me because you already know how dark the road is without Me.”

            Taking a deep breath I let the truth soothe my anxious soul.  Looking around I still could not believe that in all the Glory, Jesus’s eyes were still only on me.  This was divine love.  I was inseparable from my creator, and it was the most wonderful feeling.

            “It’s time for you to go now.”

            “Do I have to?”

            “You have more to do on the earth.  More people to love, more things that need to be done to glorify our Father.  I will bring you back when it is time.  But right now it is time for you to be a light.”

            With that I was back on the earth.  Away from the angels singing; away from Jesus and all His glory.  But I knew I would be back.  Nothing could separate us.  Not even this temporary mission on earth.  Just then I felt the Spirit grab my hand and lead me on.